Submerged in sleep and in her illusionary mind which generates all types of dreams, Jen wakes up from another nightmare.
She has fallen asleep while watching the latest footage from St Margaret’s lake in Edinburgh for an upcoming documentary on the lakes of the city.
In front of her, two wooden bowls full of rice contrast on the black metal table in her living room. The dinner was an epic fail, since her date was so dull, that she would rather go for walk outside, even though the temperature hardly reaches 2 oC.
Her light gray cardigan is on the floor. Jen lifts it up and covers her back, trying to confront the chills down on her spine.
How did she become such a miserable woman, crying for affection?
She is a top researcher and documentary producer. She should have been proud of herself.
She looks at all her souvenirs, living memories of her trips..the animal sculptures from Nairobi, the wooden servers from Wellington, New Zealand, the woven arrow hanging on the wall from New Jersey..
Her career includes everything that a woman of her age could ask for, but she feels incomplete.
Jen looks herself on the mirror and takes a picture of her face with a Kodak. This face shows desperation, anxiety and poses a big question mark.
Why? What’s missing?
Lao Tzu, the father of Taoism, once said: “The snow goose need not bathe to make itself white. Neither need you do anything but be yourself.”
She puts on her leather booties, grabs her keys and leaves the house.
Outside, it has already started snowing and by the time she reaches the next corner, she has become all white from snow.
“Well, now I start to feel somehow like a goose”. She laughs loudly and runs like never before.
Life is great. You should enjoy it ~
Dedicated to me(!) for my 25th birthday (one quarter of a century!) , just for reminding me to keep enjoying life.
By Tim Krag
(product search and photo collage by Gertrude)